peeps.

The conversation still resonates in my mind. A frustrating argument. A friend trying to be there in a moment of crisis and overwhelming emotion. Snide sarcasm in order to build a fortress around my heart. A simple,” what can I do to help?” Turns into a bitter response,” nothing, I’ve spent a great deal of time making sure I don’t need anything, that I can take care of myself.” A defeated response. “I know.”

In immediate retrospect I hated this spat. But now I relish in it, because I realized so much about myself. As it plays through my head even now I laugh on the inside recognizing God’s hand in it all. As though God said, you think you’re strong eh? I’ll show you how to need people.

I’m recognizing once again the beauty of the body of Christ. The beauty of relationship at all levels. Relationship that calls you out on your junk, that pulls you back from the fire when you can’t seem to do it yourself. Friendship that comes through a phone call; lives miles apart yet connected in ways only fathomable in God’s mind. The simplicity of just being able to be and be quiet, together, and have the comfort wash over you that all is well in the world at that very moment. The joy of children, and the love they give without needing anything in return. The obnoxious uncontrollable friend who barely lets you get a breath in between the incessant laughter. The overprotective sibs that are ready to face anything for each other.

I’m recognizing more and more my need for people. Not just for them to be faces in my life, but for them to really KNOW me. To allow them “in” and help me along this road…