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I like to measure life in Chapters. As seasons change and new things occurs, growth happens; it seems only fitting that they be measured in chapters. Moments, days, years, they all are figured into the story. The story of me.

The last chapter of my life was a long one. It was probably divided into sections with subheadings and big bold titles. It also definitely had those breaks noted with a row of asterisks. It was one of those that you wonder if you’ll ever get to the end of, with each page turn hoping for the end but instead just more paragraphs. While reading through it instead of reading it to the end of the chapter you would probably take a break at each of these rows of headings. Waiting a few days to pick it back up again hoping that somehow the main character makes it through without losing her sanity or forgetting the One who created her wasn’t done writing yet.

In the end though I learned to love where I was at in life. The highs and lows, everything a learning moment, leaving my heart open and teachable to what was going on. Soaking it in as much as possible without getting too frustrated with the stagnate nature of it all. It’s interesting how looking back at something it all becomes so much clearer. The meaning behind the moments, even the tiny ones, which I didn’t understand until later were so foundational to bringing me to where I am.
I’m thankful for the chapter, the chapter that covered three years of my life. From graduation until now; the highs and lows, ins and outs; the face plants and the mountaintops - it all was worth it.

Three years ago I graduated from college. Degree in hand and student loans still in their grace period I felt like I could take on the world. The world was my oyster and I anticipated the road I was on would continue to be clear and effortless. It was clear, but not effortless. While others took the main highways to their destination of dream jobs, marriage, and children; I opted for the less traveled roads.

Standing where I’m at today I see the beauty of it all and I’m thankful. Thankful for the Lord’s provision and thankful for the time to figure out who I am. Thankful for the unending grace He gives which enables me to continue this journey.